distractions

I feel like I have a lot to say to update about how Im feeling right now cuz I didnt want to throw it all out there at once in the first post.

So Im living at home with my family for the summer. And Im working 40 hrs at a factory every week (with the option of overtime). And I have a little sister that wants me to do everything with her. And I havent really sat down and talked with my parents about the whole support raising process. And my room is filled with boxes and furniture so I have no place to go to really be by myself. And... I feel like the list could go on and on of things that distract me from focusing on God and support raising. Its so hard to focus here. But I suppose it could, or would, be that way no matter where I was. I just need to choose to spend my time on what and who is most important right now. I need to set up a "work" schedule so that I can be more disciplined. I need to set myself up for success, and by not doing that Im setting myself up for failure. I think theres a quote that says something like: Failing to prepare is preparing to fail. I think I do this often where I dont plan things out or formally make goals for myself. I can think to myself, "oh I need to do [fill in the blank]." but if I dont write it down or have someone hold me accountable to it and dont end up doing it, then I dont feel too bad and just push it back another day. Thats also the procrastination in me I guess. But I cant be doing that this summer. I would love to be on campus at the beginning of school! Although that is ultimately up to God, I still have to do my part.

Speaking of doing my part... I sent out my first batch of support letters Saturday and will be calling some people either Wednesday and/or Thursday to set up appointments! yikes! I totally need Jesus' help with this cuz I imagine that Ill be holding the phone for a long time before I actually push the send button! Im nervous thinking about it already! Ok, well I think thats enough for tonight... keep coming back for updates! :)

Please Pray:

• that I will not let the distractions of life keep me from running after Jesus and living my life for him
  
• that I am dedicated and determined to do my part with support raising, yet...
• that I depend completely on Jesus
• for courage and boldness as I make my first calls this week

Thanks friends for your prayers! I appreciate it so much! love you!